I don't know where to start

No, seriously, I don't.

I'm an ass. I'm a horrible person, a horrible lover, mate, s/o, partner. I'm a horrible despicable person. No one ever warned me about these things growing up. No one ever told me these things could happen to me. And I hate myself for it.

I betrayed Aiden. I betrayed his love for me, his trust in me, everything he felt for me. I betrayed it all. I got drunk and my inhibitions fell to the floor. I've never felt like this before. I wish I didn't now, but here I am.

I was upset over something so Gods damned stupid! I'm so angry over it now.

I don't know what else to say other than... I love you, Aiden. I love you more than anything on this planet. I hope in time you can forgive me. I'm so sorry and I love you. No one has nor will anyone ever mean to me what you do.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

Forgive me.