Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Home is where the heart is

Nice to be posting and trying to say something, even if I'm seriously in monster pain right now. Aiden's been bummed but he's been here the whole day. I guess Branwen and her group left yesterday evening. Gonna miss them, hoping that they'll be back up for Aiden's and My anniversary. We plan on doing something for it. Not sure what though.

Aiden fell asleep. He climbed up into bed beside me. There's been a lot of protesting from the Docs when he does that, but he's been here and he's been amazing. Even if he's falling asleep. I don't know what I'd do without him. He means so much to me. The last several years of life have been a blast, and just living and growing with him, learning about each other. I don't think the Gods could have blessed me more, and I'm lucky for each day that I spend with him. Most wonderful man ever. Well when he doesn't snore. His snoring tends to keep me up.

So, we're going to just spend the weekend together and try and figure out what the hell we're going to do about Taben. The police are after him looking for him. I've seen the posts he's been making and, well they're quite disturbing. I guess things really change when you have some supernatural monster running your life. I find myself wondering if he can be saved and what will happen if we do save him. What if the knowledge of everything he's done kills him? How can we even begin to deal with that? How do we help someone through something that deep and dreadful. There must be something we can do. And I hope to Gods people don't give up on him. I love Taben. Aiden and I accepted him into our lives and our relationship. We cherish the person we knew and the love we shared. The family we had. I hate seeing what's become of a man that I knew to be so loving and kind. To see what those monsters have done to him is horrendous. To watch as we lost Ryan, then Allen and  finally we've lost Taben. It's been too much. But by Gods we're going to fight and get him back.

They're saying that my healing process is moving quickly. They're saying about a month or so more of being bed ridden. My job has been supplying me with work I can do here, it's really nice to have that option so I'm always kept busy. It's nice too that my parents have made it so that Aiden's allowed to remain with me since they were trying to keep Aiden from me since he's not 'family'. I hate Ohio's dumbass laws. Just because we didn't get married in a church and weren't allowed to sign papers doesn't mean anything to me. We got married, we exchanged vows before our friends, family, and eyes of our Gods. Just because YOUR God says you have to be married a certain way is not the same for any other God. As far as I'm concerned, I happily married the man of my dreams. I'm happy. So I'm going to have my man here beside me, with me through this. By Gods I love him. And, I don't know where I was going with that. I really need to sleep but the pain's terrible. I asked them to stop the pain meds because I was afraid of  some sort of deadening of my nerves or something. Or that it'd eat apart my liver or some such. I'm paranoid when it comes to medicine and try to avoid them whenever possible. I'm thinking it's less likely I'll sleep without it though. So I guess for tonight it's pain meds so I can get some shut eye.

I'll see everyone later and, well I'll probably post again very soon since I'll have more than enough time to in the coming month(s). Take care. And Branwen, Alex, Casey, Seth and Skyler. You guys take care of yourself and you had better come back and visit when you get a chance. Love ya all. Stay safe. To everyone else, the same to all of you.

1 comment:

  1. I love you. I love you so much. I wish I could have told you. I wish I could have saved you. I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry that I failed you. I wish I could bring you back, there must be some way, just some way if, if I can't have you here with me then... maybe it's my time to go and join you. I'm so sorry, babe. I'm so very sorry. I don't know how I'm going to survive without you. So I just, won't. I'll see you soon. I love you. I'll be there soon. We'll be together again. I'm so sorry.

    Yours eternally,